Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Higher ground

Hey fam! Hope you all are doing great. :) Remember you're constantly in my prayers and that I'm always sending love your way. 

This was a great week! We've started doing lots of FHE's with the members, less actives, and investigators as a way to help people make friends and learn the gospel. It's been super fun! We've gotten to know the families in the ward better and they are trusting us with their friends and neighbors to teach. 

Also if you haven't watched the #BecauseHeLives video yet, you probably should because it's beautiful and then share it on Facebook because it's beautiful. 

So I realized something about myself this week... I am like, an incredibly stressed out person haha (well, was. getting better everyday folks). But my mission president helped me realize that I was imposing a lot more pressure upon myself than necessary because I didn't understand the doctrine of grace. So he explained it to me more in depth, which helped, but I realized that I really didn't understand how to apply the grace of God/Christ's mercy in my life. I still haven't figured it out completely... the balance between motivational pressure (healthy stress) and merciful resting.... but I think I'm on my way to understanding haha. He explained to me that in the 70s, the church didn't do a very good job at preaching grace for various reasons, but have realized recently that we need it. There were a few talks on it during conference this year on Sunday. But yeah many church members don't understand grace and are suffering because of it. Many of us hold ourselves and others at unrealistic expectations which leads us to wrongly accuse ourselves and others who seem to not be enduring to the end, according to our personal (and less than merciful) definition. So basically that's super lame and we should all figure out our own balance between justice and mercy so we don't die from unnecesary pressure nor miss out on the joy that progression brings. I'm still studying it but if I come upon some awesome scriptures I'll let you know. Also if any of you find any talks or scriptures, let me know cuz I would love to learn more. 

So yeah it's been a week of soul searching on my part haha. And I'm lucky to have Hermana Andersen because she's basically my personal psychologist and goof-ologist when I need it haha. 

Anyways. :)

Loving you all more and more everyday. 

OH almost forgot. I am now obsessed with family history and I wish I had time to do it out here but I'm just accumulating this enormous hunger to know where I came from so I'm gonna have a giant family history feast when I get home. It's probably one of the most powerful connections I'm felt spiritually. It is very cool to look into the past and feel a love for people you haven't met when you read their names. It made me want to be a strong link in the chain between the past, present, and future. 

Okay that's all. 

I love you all mucho mucho mucho. :)

Hermana Cannon II (and counting)    

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